This Week Was ROUGH!

I don’t know about you, but this past week was rough 😫

Coming off the high of an incredible birthday week and vacation, I slid into a deep spiral of overwhelm, fear, sadness, anger and confusion 🥵

Old trauma patterns arose.
Isolation increased.
Communication ceased.

Stories were being told inside my head that weren’t true, or helpful and I didn’t have the energy, strength, or even desire sometimes, to fight them off.

Until I did. 👍
It started with awareness.

There was a part of me that was OBSERVING the fact that I was triggered beyond all get out. There was a part of me that KNEW what I should be doing to help myself. There was a part of me that WANTED things to change.

So, step by step, bird by bird. 🕊

I attempted to pull myself up and out by DEFYING the voice inside my head that said “Shut your mouth, don’t say anything. The more you talk the worse it’ll be.”

Once I started REALLY being honest, I felt So. Much. Better.

It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t seamless. It didn’t go exactly how I planned, but that is life.

And now I have more data for next time. Because there will be a next time. There will be more times when I am triggered, when I am projecting, when I am not living, talking, acting, in my highest self.

But now, I have more data that shows me: Talking helps. Talking is safe and my feelings matter. ❤️

So…. how was this past week for you? 😆